yellow card playing in the background.drums and violins echo the thoughts inside my head.electric guitars mimic the voice speaking in my heart.love songs don't stop playing themselves,and i can't take another second,being reminded of you.but i can't shut the world out.i'm helpless as the ripped sheets of your last letter i've thrown in the wind.and i'm dying inside,precariously taking the next step towards you.but you let me die,you let me fall,and you continue to move away.you see how pathetic i am,and you can't take it.you see how worthless this all is,and you leave it all behind.you think i can't see that?i love you.of course i see that.my eyes are wide open to everything you can bare.i'm an open wound waiting for the next blow you can inflict on me.but i'm still going through all of this.this whole mess of broken hearts,shattered souls and a typhoon of tears.i always thought that you were my destiny.that we would tread this gray-skied path hand in hand.but the farther we walk along,the farther you move away from me,and slowly i lose your grip.now,i can't find you.we've lost each other.the more we try to communicate,the more your words make no sense.and i can't even understand myself.but still,you're the only one i can ever love.but every move,every touch,every heartless caress,every unfeeling kiss,every cold whisper alienates me from you.i don't know who you are,i don't know what we're in.and it scares me that we've built up our lives on a conspiracy of prevarications.i want to flee,to run away from you.but my heart has me on chains.i can't leave you behind.